perfect moments

"Emily's Tea Party"

2012-01-20T14:52:00.000-08:00

A Journey to Boston

2012-01-15T07:54:00.000-08:00

BJ and I got married in October of 1997, and we moved into our first place a month later. We spent our first 'married' birthdays there, and we had so much fun decorating for our first Christmas together! BJ was working at his Dad's car lot at the time, and I was driving back and forth to Oakland City to finish my English Degree.

When spring break rolled around for me, which happened to be a cold and snowy one that year, I decided it was time to start voluteering my time somewhere, and spring break seemed like a good opportunity. And, after ~~not very much~~ a lot of thought about where to start my voluteering, I jumped into to my car and headed out to the Vincennes Pet Port - with strict instructions from BJ and everyone who knew me, to NOT come home with a pet on my first trip. I'm an animal psychopath. I save and rescue everything that comes into my view - including rodents and bugs. But that's another post.

When I arrived at the Pet Port, I was taken into a room to fill out papers so I could be a volunteer. I had completely planned to head to the Cat Room and give the cats some lovin'.   As I finished my paper work, a man in a sock hat, with a scruffy salt and pepper beard, volunteered to show me around. We took a look at the puppy area, and I said my pleasantries, "Oh, how cute," when inside I was doing everything in my power to keep from running in the room, gathering as many as I could hold in my arms and darting out the door. But I didn't. I made it all the way back to the 'big dog' cages before the nice man said, "I know you told me 782 times that you CAN NOT take an animal home, but there's just one dog in particular you have to meet. He's over here with this red dog - they were found runnin' together, and brought in by a young couple yesterday. You just have to meet this guy - he's somethin' else." And so, I walked to the cage and laid eyes on the red dog first. My heart sank with sadness, obviously, worried about her fate.

But then, I laid eyes on the dog he was talking about. He was obviously mostly border collie, but bigger - he was built just like "Lassie" but with a bit shorter hair, and he was black and white - not at all what I was expecting. The man said to me, "Let me get him out - you can start by walking him around outside a bit." Fine. I could handle this. "I won't get completely attached after a short walk. I can handle putting him back in the ~~prison~~ cage when we're done." The man put the leash on him, handed it to me, and off we went out the door. I'd take a step, and then he'd take one. I'd go four, he'd go four. What a good dog. And then, I bent down, face to face, and I was done. Finished. Finito. When I looked into his eyes, as corney as this sounds, it was as if he already knew me. He knew I was coming. He knew who I was. I grabbed him around the neck and told him everything would be ok.

I walked him back in, handed the leash to the man, and headed home to discuss the situation with BJ. I knew all the logical reasons why we shouldn't get him. I knew we lived in a small apartment, and he was a BIG dog. I knew all these things, and yet, I wanted him. I wanted him with all my being. And, as I explained all of this and more to my husband, he gently, but adamantly, said NO. NO. NO. I wasn't mad, because I knew the deal we had made before I went. But, I was persistent enough to convince him to go see him. I knew that would hook him. Nope. "I've never really liked Border Collies." I thought to myself, 'Oh yeah, you've known a lot of Border Collies, have you - tons, huh?" But again, I wasn't mad, just crushed. Beyond crushed. I cried to myself in the car and prayed - out loud - that God would lead him to a good family. That this creature, who had stolen my heart in two minutes of knowing him - would live a good life.

The next day, a Sunday, I moped and worried and pouted until my whole family finally told me to get over it. He would be fine. I had made a deal. They were right. It was a bit warmer that day, so my brother and BJ decided to go play a round of golf. Good. I didn't have to look at the face of the man who broke my heart into a million pieces. Hmph. I was NOT bitter at all. I hung out at my parents' place all day until BJ called and he and Stevie had picked up pizza and headed to the apartment, so my Pops needed to bring me home. My dad talked to me on the way home about all the ways I SHOULDN'T be mad at my husband over this dog. I finally relented, and planned to apologize as soon as I saw him. I opened the door, and I looked at BJ, standing by the couch, with THE dog at his feet.

He and my brother had gone to the Pet Port after golf, and rescued the being that would change my life in so many ways. I was speechless. I truly was. My awesome husband and wonderful Bub were grinning from ear to ear telling the story of how they had gotten him, took him to the car lot, and bathed him in cold water (the only water source there) and he hadn't so much as growled, barked or complained in any way. They KNEW he was a good dog, and they had both felt what I felt the day before. He had won them over in two hours.

For the next couple of days, we debated names. We wondered about his past, but found out from the vet that he was actually still a puppy - just barely full grown, probably not a year yet. We tried out names on him to see if he might recognize one. Then, we thought of the Celtics - BJ's favorite NBA team when he was little. "Celtic?" No. "Bird?" Uh uh. "Larry?" Absolutely not. And as if out of a story, BJ and I at the same time blurted out, "Boston?" And, in perfect timing, our 'Boston' looked at us like he was pleased. That was it. Boston.

Over the next FOURTEEN years - yes, FOURTEEN - Bossy was more than a dog could ever be. He laid with me during my sadness of losing our first baby; he sat with me through the fear of my next pregnancy, and then welcomed Sam with open arms - despite being demoted to our 'second baby' behind Sam. He welcomed all of our kids, and pets, and craziness. He became best friends with my Bub's dog Jewell, and they enjoyed several years of romping around in the snow together. He loved nothing more than chasing the kids around the yard - especially in the snow. All of our friends knew Bos - and most of them agreed that he 'knew' them the minute they locked eyes with him. He was a fierce protector - with a deep, scary bark. I ALWAYS felt safe with my Bos around. He was not a cuddler, though. He preferred to roam the house at night, almost as if he was on shift.

In the last year, Bossy's health took a turn for the worse. The dog was 14 - of course it took a turn for the worse. His bones were aching, and he was diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure. But you know what, he still would get a little spry at times and chase one of our cats around the yard. We were SHOCKED he made it through Christmas as his age and health was obviously affecting him greatly. Three days ago, he started to foam and drool and his breathing was so labored that it was painful to look at him. As we were eating lunch - as a family - at our table...I made the call to our vet. They instructed us to bring him in, and they would put him down and end his suffering. To say that our hearts were shattered, would seriously be the understatement of the year. This dog - this being - this soul - was such an integral part of The Thornes.

I bawled as I watched each of my kids hug his neck and tell him goodbye, and that they would see him again. BJ and were both crying uncontrollably as he picked him up and put him in the car for the last time. We arrived at the vet and they took us into the room. At this point, he was so labored in his breathing, we honestly thought he might die on his own.  Bos walked over to where I was kneeling on the floor and lay down. Dr. Catt gave him an injection to take away his pain and sedate him deeply. BJ and I both were talking to him, and when the medicine hit him, he was so peaceful and breathing so calmly. I know God was there - ready to welcome him. As sad and broken as I was, when Dr. Catt walked in with the injection that would stop the heart of the soul that had given us so much throughout his life, I was at peace. I put my arms around his neck - just as I had done on that miraculous first meeting fourteeen years ago and told him it was okay; we loved him, and we would be with him again. Dr. Catt told me that when she has a patient that she has to euthanize, it's not nearly as sad when she knows it's an animal who has lived the fullest and best life possible. That gave me so much hope and peace, and I think it shows what kind of doctor she truly is.

Boston - our journey to you and with you will be one that changed us forever. Thank you for choosing us. Thank you for being a Dog among Dogs.  Thank you for protecting us and loving us with every fiber of your being. You truly were, are, and will be a part of us forever. Until we meet again, my sweet peanut butter loving boy, God Speed and Sweet Dreams.

Longhorn State...

2011-11-14T09:55:00.001-08:00

It's so strange how something that occurs in one's life can completely change the perspective on everything in it. I remember when Sam was born, and I was hit hard with the, "Oh my God, I've never loved something this much, and I would die in a heartbeat to protect it," kind of love that a parent has for her child. I also remember how it changed my perspective on people. I was teaching at VU at the time, and now when my students came in on the first day, I looked at them not only as students, but as somebody's baby. Someone, somewhere, loved them the same way that I loved my Sam, and it made me react to people differently. It made me think a little more before I made judgments, because now I was judging not only a person, but someone's BABY. It definitely helped me in several ways, but at the same time, it opened my eyes to the overwhelming sadness that exists when someone isn't loved like he or she should be. Now, after having my own kids, it takes my breath when I imagine a child going to bed hungry, or not being shown the attention they deserve. It's almost to much to empathize with at times.

This thing with my brother has caused another shift in my universe - a 'paradigm shift' as one of my professor's referred to it. Sure, it has brought about that fear that no one should have to face, but that everyone surely does in a lifetime. It has brought questions, and anger, and sadness, and a fierce protectiveness that I can't describe. But more than anything, it's brought to light a kindness among people that you don't get to experience on a day to day basis.

The kindness in the thoughtful messages, texts, facebook posts, prayers, and just general interest in my brother's case has been overwhelming. I'm not kidding - it has made me speechless at times, and for those of you who know me, that doesn't happen. Ever. But, it has shown me how truly good people are - how much kindness and selflessness we're really capable of exerting when we need to.

And, several people have gone above and beyond the call of being kind, and have given of themselves in ways that can't be paid back. And the beautiful part about it, is that the people who have done this don't want to be paid back. It made them feel good to do it, and it just lifts me to a place I can't describe when I think of it. Because of this, I've been scanning my brain, trying to come up with a way to pay all of this forward. And, I have. And, I'm so excited about it. I still have to work out all the logistics, but so far, this is what I've got...I'm going to offer ten 'Pay it Forward' shoots next year. I think I will mostly offer it for Senior shoots, but any shoot would probably work. With this, the client won't pay me anything for their shoot. Instead, they can donate their time to a charity around our town, or someplace that needs some extra hands. If they can't donate all the time, they could use some of the payment toward a particular charity - but especially ones in our town. This way, a senior who may not be able to afford a shoot can get one, but even for those who can, I just think this is a win win for everyone. Like I said, I'm still working out the logistics. I'm going to get ahold of the people in town who can point me in the right direction as far as local charities and go from there.

So, it's apparent that this thing with my Bub has changed me. I'd like to think for the better, but who knows. He is such a trooper. He's been in a huge amount of pain from his port, but he's not complaining. He just desperately wants to maintain a sense of normalcy in his life, so he doesn't say a word. I wish I were as strong as he has been - it's truly amazing to see. I feel a sense of calm and peace since I arrived and have been able to see him and HUG him! I know I'll dread leaving, but being here is definitely something I needed.

Again, keep the prayers and positive vibes headed his way - he has a long road to travel, but I know he'll make it. I KNOW it.

B

2011-11-07T10:00:00.000-08:00

Hi Everyone - thanks for taking the time to make it over and read. It's very cathartic and therapeutic for me to get my thoughts out in words, and I firmly believe that every prayer or positive thought coming my brother's way is a blessing.

Four weeks ago, Stevie flew B.J. (my hubby) down to Austin, TX for the Cotton Bowl. It was an early birthday gift for B.J., and they were going to go to Dallas for the Bowl and then B.J. would fly home from there. Well, on the night the BJ arrived, he and Stevie and Ash went out for a few beers, but called it an early night as Tebe (my nickname for my Bub), wasn't feeling well. By the next morning, he was throwing up violently and his ankles were swollen to twice their size. After reluctantly agreeing to go to the ER, he was admittedly immediately as his blood pressure was stupid high. And by stupid high, I mean like 220/165. Stroke bait. Heart attack in a box. And, his creatnine and BUN levels were too high. Those numbers basically measure how well your kidneys are functioning and what their general output of protein and all that good stuff is. A normal number is 1.5. Tebe was checked in with a 3.5. A patient will be dialyzed when his number reaches 4 or higher.

So, at this point, he was diagnosed with Acute Kidney Failure. Since moving to Austin last year, Tebe has become somewhat of a health nut and works out regularly, and consumes large amounts of whey protein. This, we thought and hoped, was the cause of this AKF. His kidneys just became too taxed with trying to process all this protein. But, by the next day, his numbers were getting worse instead of better. The doctor began to suspect something else was at play here. This is where the 'I'm flipping out so badly I can't concentrate on anything for more than twenty seconds' stage began, but I remained positive despite the ominous feeling. My parents and friends/family did the same thing.

The following week, his doctor ordered a kidney biopsy as his numbers kept getting worse. His doc told him if anything, we want it to be a form of nephropathy called IgA because he could live a long life before having to be dialyzed with the proper treatment. So, the biopsy comes back, and lo and behold, it's IgA Nephropathy. Except it's the "Rapidly Progressive" kind that only two percent of patients with this disease suffer from. Devastation upon hearing this news is the understatement of the century. My mom called to tell me; I called Ash, his girlfriend, and we cried until we could no longer understand each other. I got in the car to drive to my husband and tell him the news. All the while, I was trying to reach my brother on the phone, and I was scared beyond reason of how his mental state would be. When I saw B.J., I collapsed in his arms and told him that Stevie was deathly ill, and that it could get worse. At that time, the phone rang, and it was him. It was Stevie. I tried to compose myself, but right after I answered and heard the words, "Hey Sissy," I completely lost it. Stevie, on the other hand was Positive Polly. I couldn't get over how calm and reassuring he was. As an aside, Stevie has come to know God on a personal level since moving to Austin, and I know this was a huge reason for his demeanor. He calmly explained to me that since his disease was the bad kind of IgA, he would immediately start chemo for a six month period in an attempt to bring his kidney function to livable percentage.

This meant that in a four day span, he and Ash had to make plans to freeze his sperm, which, for those of you who know Stevie was made absolutely hilarious with hourly updates and statements such as, "They can't even get a guy some lotion? My hand are like boulders over here!" Only he could make a situation that could have been so charged and sad into a funny one. For that, I am so grateful.

Fast forward three weeks...Tebe had the chemo in his system - twice a day - everyday, and he was on a dose twice the amount that a breast cancer patient takes. But in all of that, it was he who was reassuring us that he was fine. It was he who was making it to work everyday and talking his neurotically worried big sister off the ledge every hour. He couldn't sleep because he kept dreaming he was drowning. This was thought to be caused by the fluid accumulation around all of his organs - including his lungs. But, again, he never complained. He continually assured us that he was going to beat this even though his kidneys, "Suck Nuts," as he so eloquently explained. Well, last Monday, they tested his numbers to make sure they were doing what they were supposed to. And guess what, not only were they NOT responding the right way, they were getting worse. Way worse. End Stage Renal Failure worse. Tebe's kidneys were functioning at a whopping six percent.

So, that brings us to now. The docs immediately put him on the transplant list, they took him off the Lasik medication, and they kept him on the chemo in a last ditch effort to get his numbers up. My brother, as positive as he is, is a realist, and he knows his numbers aren't going to get better. He looks like a 'Mother F'ing Stuffed Pig' - his words, and he feels absolutely horrible. Is he complaining? Cause you can bet your sweet ass I'd be pissed and sad and depressed and I would be telling him about it! But him? Nope. Not a complaint. Just a request for a donor match so he can get a kidney and go on with his life. Typing those words makes me want to crawl inside of a hole and not come out. Knowing that I have a baby brother whom I love so very much and who is so very sick and is still positive and sure that he is going to be fine, makes me more proud than I ever thought I could be.

Here's where your prayers and positive thoughts come in. More than likely, he will start dialysis this week. From there, they will start testing us - his family - for donors. I'm begging and pleading with every fiber of my being that I'm a match. If you can pray and send wishes that I'm a good match, it would mean more than the world to me. Until we find out that I'm not, that's what I'm asking for as far as prayers go. If I'm not, than we'll move onto prayers for a match to show up quickly, but for now, I desperately want to be able to give him a kidney.

I know I have written a novel, and I so appreciate you sticking around and reading this. That action alone puts positive vibes toward him, and that's all I can ask for.

I love my little brother like I love my children. He is seriously the best friend any sister could ask for. He's also the greatest Uncle my kids could have. I pray with all my heart that his sickness and pain is eased by your prayers and positive thoughts, but I especially pray that God allows me to qualify as a donor.

Thank you, again, for your time. If you'd like to leave a comment either here or on facebook to let Tebe and me know that you've got his back, it would be so greatly appreciated.

Brandie

Taj is ONE! {Gorgeous Kid, Gorgeous Light}

2011-02-16T15:07:00.000-08:00

Ok - first off, I was so excited when I walked into Taj's home and saw all the beautiful, glorious light that was awaiting me! And the, I turned around and laid eyes on one of the most gorgeous kids I've ever seen. AND, AND, AND, he was so sweet and cooperative, and pretty much did anything we asked him to. The shoot was on his actual first birthday, so it just made it that much more special. I really hope I get to capture Mr. Taj and his wonderful family again!

Valentines Day {Waxing Philosophical)

2011-02-14T07:21:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentines Day, Everyone. I hope your lives are as filled with love as mine is. As I was falling asleep last night, after having played nurse to two kiddos with Influenza B all day, I was suddenly overcome by how blessed and full my life is. And, I felt I had no choice but to get it out of my head and onto paper (or screen, as is the case).

BJ lost his job back in June. Since then, he's been drawing unemployment, working as a Sub in the VCSC schools, and going to school to finish his teaching degree. Needless to say, with four kids, times are tight, especially now that Illinois Unemployment has taken away his pay because he's in school. We have appealed it, but we won't know anything until they contact us with an answer. Why do I share this? Well, because despite our financial situation, I've never felft 'richer' in my entire life.

Yes, I know that sounds cliche, and cheesy, but it's absolutely the truth. My family lives in a 1600 sq. foot house. With two big adults and four BIG kids, that's not a lot of space, and nerves can get jangled easily when it's loud. BUT, I love that we are crammed together. I love that we have no choice but to be in each other's company. I love that my boys have to share a room and that usually, one of them ends up in bed in our room anyway!

I feel so blessed to have a husband who is bettering his future for himself and his family. It's surreal and wonderful to be having discussions with him concerning Aristotle! Aristotle? Really? I love it. I couldn' have asked for a better friend and partner in life. Sure, I want to brain him 25% of the time, but I can deal with that. It's the other 75% that's so important, and I totally lucked out there.

My kids are truly the light of my life. I've changed my mindset on few things, and it has opened me up to so many more moments that truly are the 'richest' ones in my life. When Sam, (Number One) turned ten this year, it hit me like a ton of bricks. He is on the downward slope of the time he will be with me. AND, it will be less than the first nine years because so much of his time will go to friends and sports and all things that teens do. And while it does knock the wind out of me to realize this, it has also pounded home what I've known to be true all along: love every moment now, for they won't last. I'm not saying I enjoy every moment. Oh no - I don't enjoy the sibling screaming matches, the whining, the incessant messiness, the crabiness. But, I do LOVE them. At the end of the day, despite what the day has held, I love the moments - crazy ones and all. And I'm making more of an effort to show my kids the joy I'm getting from just the small stuff. And since I've been opening myself up to it more, the kids have been giving me more.

With my business, I couldn't feel more blessed and happy. I love that I get to meet and 'know' so many families with what I do. I feel like I have learned so much about my own family by interacting with so many others. I'm striving everyday to continue to improve, and I'm hoping it shows. I run my biz in a way that's probably not conducive to the most successful business model. In fact, I often don't collect payment when I should, or I don't charge what I should, but I sort of feel like everything comes back around, and that's why I have so much joy in this job. I was burned a while back when someone canceled a wedding because they found another alternative. I hadn't made them sign the contract when I did the engagement shoot because I felt bad about them having to pay so much at one time. Because they didn't sign the contract, they went with someone else - even though I had held that date - one of the most popular wedding date weekends - for them. I had turned down two other inquiries for that day because I wanted them to have the date - even though I hadn't gotten a down payment. Needless to say, I was really hurt about the situation, and at first, I thought of changing how I handle my biz practices to prevent a future event like this one. And while I have changed a few things, I'm not going to let this change me. I've put a few things in place, like collecting a down payment at booking, but other than that, I do trust that people for the most part are true to their word. AND, I hold no ill will for the couple. I truly do hope their wedding photos are everything they hope for. As for the photographer who booked them, I can only hope he/she didn't know they had a verbal contract with someone else. And if they did, I hope I never resort to running my business that way. Everything comes full circle, and I feel like the true joy I feel from this 'work' is payback enough.

So, I've rambled a lot. I've cheesed out, so to speak. But, I had to get it down. I had to let my little family unit of love know how I feel. Even in the most desperate times, I know that I can squeeze together with my babies and my husband and feel richer than I could have ever imagined. I hope that on this Valentine's Day, your life is full of all the love you want and need.

B

Weekend in Chicago {REAL Family Moments}

2011-02-08T17:12:00.000-08:00

This shoot embodies everything I want to capture in families this year. True, real emotions - families doing what they do best - loving, laughing, and LIVING. This family was amazing, and the two feet of snow they got in last week's snow storm made for a perfect backdrop. Thanks, Johnson's, for making my 'job' the greatest one on earth.

Fave shots of 2010 {Part 2}

2011-02-02T11:55:00.000-08:00

This is HARD! I loved so many shots from 2010, that it's killing me to narrow them down. I've decided that since I'm putting so much thought into choosing these, that it's only fair that the subjects IN them receive something. If you see a pic of you, or your child, listed in my faves posts (there will be several more to come) contact me and I'll send you a voucher for 30% off your next shoot in 2011. You have to contact me within three days of the posting, so if you see someone you know, drop them a line!

Anyway, here we go....

The mood, the light, the day itself was such a phenomenal thing to be a part of. These wedding pics are definitely some of my all time faves and this shot just exudes happiness.

Really, Landon? Do your eyelashes have to be as long as fingers hanging from your eyes? I love the inquizitive look he's got as he searches for 'the bird' that flies across my lens as my shutter closes. :)

This is probably my fave shot from the year. Pure, real, moments. I LOVE this so very much, even though it's technically far from a perfect shot.

Love the action here. Boundless energy of a child on a summer day. Doesn't hurt that the child in question is gorgeous! Wish I had an eighth of that energy.

Be still my heart. I. LOVE. THIS. SHOT. I love that hair. I love that beautiful dream coming across through his sweet little smile. *sigh*

Fave shots of 2010 {Part 1}

2011-01-28T15:19:00.001-08:00

Okay, I know this is a tad late, but I still want to do it. I'll post a five part series on my fave shots from last year. I love to do this because I get to talk a bit more about the images and why I love them so much! So, here goes...thanks for tuning in, and PLEASE leave me a comment or two!

Ok, I love this one for obvious reasons...can you get over his expression?! He's looking at me like I have two heads for putting him in the dumptruck. Love it.

I love the moment here. I love the look of awe on her face as she starts her magical relationship with the Big Guy. I like the soft feel of it as well.

I love the lighting in this shot, and I love that Kate is making the goofy schmooshy face as her brothers strike a serious mug!

Does happiness not just flow from every pore of her body?! I just loved this capture, and I can't wait to capture her again very soon!

First, the kid is stinkin' gorgeous. Second, the expression he is making melts my heart into a big puddle of mush. I LOVE this. This is probably in my top five faves, but I'm not posting the faves in any particular order, so it's going in the first set.

Also, my special has been going REALLY well, but I'm going to wrap it up next Wednesday, Feb. 2. If you'd like to purchase a gift cert., just drop me an email!

New Year ~ New Special!

2011-01-25T13:49:00.000-08:00

Well, thanks for making it over here. Even after having blown off about getting this blog going again and never following through, I'm going to give it another try! Because of this, I'd like to offer you a special:

With the New Year under way, I’ve revised my website and added some exciting new options to my product base. With this, I wanted to offer my loyal friends and clients an opportunity to have a photo shoot and save some cash this year!
So, I’m offering gift certificates at a reduced rate. You can purchase them for someone, or you can purchase them now and use them later for your own shoot!

Here’s the deets:

$75 gift certificate for $50

$125 gift certificate for $75

$200 gift certificate for $100

$350 gift certificate for $200

If you’d like to purchase one (or more), you can pay by card or check. If you choose to pay with a card, I will email you an invoice and once I receive your payment, I will email you the certificate. If you purchase one with a check, I will email you the certificate as soon as the check clears.
This is great deal, and the gift certificate can be combined with other specials and used for any shoot in 2011.
And, now that you’ve made it to my blog, I am going to run periodic specials throughout the year, so make sure you stay tuned to my updates to take advantage of them.
If you’d like to purchase a gift certificate, drop me an email at brandie@bthornephotography.com, or just leave a comment in the 'comments' section of this post.

Happy New Year!

Ages and Ages and Ages...

2010-08-18T10:47:00.000-07:00

So much time has passed since this neglected blog of mine got any attention. I blame it on facebook. It's so easy to post there that I forget how many wonderful readers I had here! Well, no more. This is it. I have to return to blogland. I WILL!

Long overdue Birthday Post for my Biggest Boy...

2010-03-30T10:30:00.000-07:00

Dear Sam,
I can't believe my oldest baby - my oldest son - is nine years old. It sounds so cliche to talk about how it just seems like yesterday that you were born, but in reality, it's so true. The time I've had with you has been the best nine years of my life, in part because of your flair for the dramatic, your ability to become excited about ANYthing, and your passion for life itself. You don't do anything half-way - it's all or nothing with you, and although at time, the nothing does want to creep through, your exuberance for everything is contagious.

I love that you are so kind. I love that you think about even the little bugs we see and how they're just trying to make it like we are. I love that you take great care not to hurt anyone's feelings, and that when you do hurt them, you grieve and immediately take action to make up for it. Your baby brother Max adores you. He wants to do everything you do because you make it a point to include him. And, what a great role model you are. I love your crazy blond curls, and your deep chocolate eyes. I love that you hold doors for everyone, and that you never fail to give someone a wave if they let you cross in front of them. I love that you speak to all strangers in a kind voice and ask them how they are. I love that you're mine.

You have lived with us over half the time that you ultimately will. And while that thought brings me to tears - almost to my knees - at any given moment, it also gives me so much excitement and anticipation about what your future holds. Something big is in store for you, my boy - I know it in my bones.

I love you to the moon and back, more than you'll ever know, and I'm so grateful and proud to be your Mama.

A different kind of shoot...

2010-01-20T13:47:00.000-08:00

I had the pleasure and privilege of capturing the canine officers who help to keep our county safe. AND, after watching them sprint AT me at full force, I think I'd rather the officer shoot me than let one of the dogs get ahold of me. Yikes. BUT, they're only mean when they have to be, and when they don't have to be, they're the most lovable, adorable, and beautiful dogs to hang with. Here are a few of my favorites. (edited to add: not sure why the second pic looks so pixelated; if you click on it, it will open it up and looks better. Hmmmm.....)

No better way to start the year...

2010-01-19T14:22:00.000-08:00

...Than to have a post dedicated to one of my heathens. Cooper, my second in the line of Thorne kids, celebrated his SEVENTH birthday on January 8th. SEVEN. I can't believe it, nor can I believe what a wonderful guy he's turning into.

Coop - I can't tell you how proud I am of the kind, thoughtful, and considerate boy you are. You wear your heart on your sleeve, and you always, without fail, put others first. You would never think of getting your own shoes from the basement without bringing up your brothers' as well. Even though they often don't acknowledge the kindness, well, maybe they do in their own bodily noise sort of way, I do, and I appreciate it. I love that you are fiercely protective of your baby sister, and that no one can make her light up like you. I still can't believe that you held her so calmly and didn't even make a loud noise when she threw up on you. In Your Mouth. You were holding her above you and she splatted you in the face with baby puke, and you quietly said, "Mom - I need a towel. Fast." Not many adults could've handled that situation the way you did.

I love your goofy grin with your chicklet front teeth, and I love how your freckles stand out on your nose when you're hot and sweaty. From the moment you entered my life seven years ago, I knew you were my special boy, and I hope it stays that way forever. I hope that we have coffee together in the mornings and that you tell me your stories for always. Your very RANDOM stories. VERY RANDOM stories.

I love you to the moon and back to infinity, Coop de Loop, and I'm so very proud to be your Mama. Happy Seventh, Birthday.

Brothers

2009-11-30T16:53:00.000-08:00

Really Really REALLY cute brothers. And they were so great for the shoot! We took advantage of some beautiful fall weather in the park, and the light was terrific, too. Thanks guys - I look forward to our next session!

Landon

2009-11-29T16:17:00.001-08:00

I'm old. I used to babysit for Landon's mama. Wow. And he looks so much like her when she was a kid! He is adorable, and I'm going to get to take his pics again very soon - woohoo!

My Sweet little Gabe...

2009-11-09T16:50:00.000-08:00

I've had the pleasure of capturing this little sweetheart since he was teeny-weeny. I love his curls; I love his beautiful blue eyes, but mostly I love how kind and loving he is. He is a true living doll, and I could seriously bite those cheeks right off his face.

Fun Family

2009-11-09T11:45:00.000-08:00

I've known Steve, the dad, since we were little; we grew up in the same church and then went to the same high school. I'm just getting to know Erica, and I really enjoy her! The kidlets were so well behaved and they cooperated so well - I was so impressed!

And another for the night...

2009-10-22T15:03:00.000-07:00

Two posts! In one hour! Woohoo!
This family is very precious to me. Rose, the mama, and I got to know each other from church about six years ago. In that time, her daughter Emily and Sam (my oldest) became friends and we joined the same playgroup. Well, in June of 2004, Emily drowned in their backyard pool. It was the most horrific and bone numbing experience I've ever witnessed someone go through. I can only imagine the pain that her mama and her whole family experienced. Well, a couple years and several attempts later, they were blessed with another angel in Miss Gracie. Grace Emily to be exact. She is a perfect combo of Emily and Levi - the older brother she so completely adores in these photos.

I thought the shoot would be bittersweet for me, but you know, there was nothing but love there during it. We couldn't have had a more beautiful, perfectly lit afternoon, and you could just see the joy oozing from Grace and she played with her 'bubby'. I felt so honored to have been able to capture this little girl in all her glory. I know her sissy would be so proud.

Jumping back in...

2009-10-22T14:45:00.000-07:00

We'll pretend there hasn't been over a MONTH without new pics...and just jump right back in with a wedding. How's that? I'll just keep the shoots coming and act as if I never missed a beat, K? Thanks. Anyway, here are Tabitha and Gabe on their big day.

"Hello - is this thing on?" (Crickets, Crickets)

2009-10-08T06:43:00.000-07:00

Well, it's officially been the longest posting hiatus I've ever taken. BUT, I've been working diligently on my website and it's ready to launch. AND, I've been without internet service on my laptop because my wireless card is cashed. So....stay tuned for some exciting stuff. I'm going to be posting my Christmas specials and some news about the upcoming year. AND, I'll post some of the many shoots I've had since I last posted!

Fun at the Park!

2009-09-01T10:18:00.000-07:00

I'd never shot at this particular park in late afternoon, but I'm glad I did. The weather was hot, but the shade was nice, and light in the open shade was fantastic! These kiddos had some amazing eyes, and since their mom had bribed them with ice cream (my kind of mom), they were very cooperative! Thanks guys, I had a blast!

Miss Lilly

2009-08-31T09:51:00.000-07:00

Since her big sis has graced the pages of this site on many occasions, we felt we should get Lilly on her asap! She is so tiny, and new, and squishy, and kissable! Oh - I LOOOOOVVVVVEEEEE new babies. LOVE them. She had no intentions of sleeping, though, so some shots were out, but we did get plenty of awake and alert shots, and I love them just as much. Congrats, Olivia Jane, on your beautiful baby sis!

Gorgeous Kids and Perfect Light....

2009-08-31T05:59:00.000-07:00

A PERFECT combination. And, not only were these kids gorgeous, they were so polite and well-mannered. AND, and, and...they were cooperative! Don't get me wrong, I don't mind kids who aren't in the mood for pics...it just makes my job that much more fun when I can just shoot and the kiddos just go along for the ride. Thanks guys - I loved spending time with your beautiful family!

I Do, I Do, I Do!

2009-08-25T06:51:00.001-07:00

Loved this wedding. And, I can say that I saw something happen that I've never seen before...the bride and groom released doves (or homing pigeons I've since learned) after the cermony. Well, as soon as the birds were placed in the couples' hands, Aimee (sorry about the misspelling, Miss A!) got a little scared and let go too soon. Like, in the church to soon. Like, the bird was flying around in the sanctuary too soon. They were able to let the other one go, but the one trapped in the church proved to be a stinker. He flew inside the pipe organ and wouldn't come out. It looked grim for the little guy, but alas, a church member was able to wrangle him up a couple days later. Both birds are now safely back at home, and Aimee and Mark lived happily ever after.

Mac and Baby Ella

2009-08-24T06:57:00.000-07:00

This shoot was special for me because Mac was my first newborn shoot, and one of my very first 'anything' shoots! Getting to capture his baby sis was real treat. And on a serious note, just a week after these photos were taken, Baby Ella was lifelined to Riley hospital with a heart ailment. She's okay now, but will have to take meds all of her life. Thank God her Mama had the instincts to know something wasn't quite right with her baby. I'm so grateful that Miss Ella will be home soon. Keep them in your prayers, please!

Two Beauties...

2009-08-23T15:02:00.000-07:00

This was my third shoot with Miss I and her little sis Miss A. And they're even more beautiful this year. I used a candy coated action on these to give them a dreamy feel as the mood just fit right. I'm really pleased with them.

Senior Shoot

2009-08-21T13:53:00.000-07:00

I have known Nettie for several years now, and I can't believe she's a senior! We had a blast at her shoot and were able to utilize the evening light to capture some really cool shots. I LOVE the one of her below...so cool!

Baby Jude

2009-08-21T09:29:00.000-07:00

I LOVE his name. And despite the fact that he DID NOT want his picture taken, I think we got some pretty sweet shots!

Changes!

2009-08-20T18:20:00.000-07:00

Well, I was feeling girly and so I changed up the blog to fit that mood. I like it for now. And, the cutie in the header?! Mr. Leyton is his name, and his eyes are fantastically big and beautiful! Anyway, I've got lots of new things to talk about, and LOTS of photos to publish. So, to get right to it, here's some shots from a recent wedding. I absolutely love the genuine emotion from these two - it was truly heartwarming to be a part of their beautiful day. Congrats Brian and Amy!

Helllloooo?! Anyone still there?!

2009-08-20T08:12:00.001-07:00

Wow. Just wow. I can't believe it's been this long since I posted. Ack. BUT - it's not for lack of shoots - I've been swamped, and I'm loving it! My two big boys started back to school, and I've been uber busy trying to get my office and living room rearranged, so I haven't had time to post any new photos, and boy get ready, cause they're comin'! I have tons, but first, I'm trying to recode my blog to allow for bigger photos. So, stay tuned - please! I will be a posting fool in a few short hours!

Greetings from the BEACH!

2009-08-03T13:49:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the lack in posts; I forgot to let you all know that I'm on vacation in Destin this week. I've been enjoying the surf with my fam, but I will post a new wedding and a couple family shoots as soon as I get back. Have a great week!

Four gorgeous kids!

2009-07-20T13:14:00.000-07:00

Mr. Tate makes four, and what a handsome addition he is to the family! This was my third annual shoot with this family, and every year, the kids get easier to shoot - they were actually asking me to set up shots this year! Thanks, guys - I so enjoy being around your wonderful family!

J.H. (squared)

2009-07-15T18:11:00.000-07:00

Jess and Jonas had the most beautiful setting for a wedding that I've ever had the opportunity to capture. It was at the New Harmony Inn in New Harmony, IN. It. Was. Gorgeous. The temp was steamy, but the surroundings were just perfect. It was an emotionally charged day as Jess and her family had just buried their beloved Grandmother the day BEFORE the wedding, and naturally, hearts were heavy. But, it was apparent that she was there in spirit and the day went as beautifully as possible. Thanks guys, for giving me this opportunity.

BEAUTIFUL Girls!

2009-07-07T16:40:00.000-07:00

These little girls were so adorable, and easy to work with! The light blonde and the bebe are sisters, and along with their cousin, they make for an adorable trio of girls for their Nana. What dolls, and the Mama/Auntie ain't too bad either! Is she gorgeous, or what?!

Do NOT take my picture!

2009-07-06T11:38:00.001-07:00

I'm sure Mr. E would have screamed it from the roof top if he could've. BUT, I was able to get some good captures anyway, and his cuteness shines through! I think his Mama was shocked that we actually got some of his gorgeous smile!

Erica and Aaron

2009-06-30T07:43:00.001-07:00

How fun was this wedding? Well, Aaron and his four brothers - yes - four...they had Aaron and then TWO sets of fraternal twins. FIVE boys. Bless their mom. Anyway - they were a blast, and we got a ton of great shots. It was a beautiful day, and I was so excited to be a part of it. Congrats, guys - you deserve all the happiness in the world.

Oh, those eyes!

2009-06-24T17:29:00.000-07:00

Yes, it was gut-wrenchingly hot outside. Yes, we were sweating profusely and swatting gnats and flies away from us. Yes, the kids were incredibly cooperative and overflowing with cuteness. These siblings are so polite and well mannered, and they totally look out for one another. I just love doing shoots for them.

Another gorgeous wedding...

2009-06-24T08:08:00.000-07:00

This was another FABULOUS wedding...the bridal party was up for anything, and we took advantage of the gorgeous light on the golf course. I knew after doing their engagement shoot that I was in for a treat at the wedding. Thanks Mr. and Mrs. Nickless - I had a blast!

The most beautiful light for a wedding...

2009-06-16T08:48:00.000-07:00

This wedding took place at Mariah Creek Chapel on the VU campus, and the light in and around that church is amazing. I NEVER had to use my flash - yay! Well, I did at the reception, but I was able to bounce it, so no harsh shadows. I really enjoyed this wedding, and I hope to get a shot at a newborn shoot in the near future?? :) Thank you guys, for a lovely day, and a lovely celebration of you.

Family Shoot in Evansville

2009-06-11T07:51:00.000-07:00

Loved this shoot...downtown Evansville is so pretty, and really, could be so much more with a little work. This family was so cute, and Mr. Evan was a doll - it's extremely difficult to stay focused for over and hour for pics, and he did it without complaint. Thanks guys, for a very enjoyable afternoon!

Bookings

2009-06-10T13:12:00.000-07:00

Just a heads up as I'm drowning in processing and I don't know when I'll have a chance to post this, so here goes. I have three more wedding openings for the year. I can't do any more than that, and I hate it, but it has to be that way while Miss Lolo is young. Next year, I'll be available for 25 weddings, but for now, I just have three left. So, if you know of someone who is interested in booking for the fall/winter, please direct them to my email. AND, if you would like to book for 2010, please do so as I already have several in the books.

Also, I have several Wednesday afternoon/evening slots available for the remainder of the year. It would be a great time to book the fall/holiday shots now to ensure you get your date.

I'm so grateful for all this business, and I couldn't be happier with all my clients and the friendships I've formed because of this business of mine. Thank you so much!

Olivia Jane is TWO!

2009-06-06T09:03:00.000-07:00

Two. I can't believe it. AND, she's got a new baby sis on the way! I can't wait to get my lens on her and OJ together. I just can't believe how big my OJ is. Sniff, sniff. Where does the time go?

Jill and Kraig's Wedding...

2009-06-04T14:12:00.001-07:00

I absolutely love these photos. It took me awhile to process because I had a little punk named Marlo on my lap for most of them. BUT - they're done, and I'm so pleased. I had to post a crap-ton just because.

Give me some Rex' lovin!

2009-06-01T10:04:00.000-07:00

I LOVED that we shot this at the park, and except for the occasional dirty look Mr. Rex would shoot me from following him EVERYwhere, I captured him in pure 'play-mode' - my favorite mode for little ones! He's so cute, and I love his expressions!

Adorable family - beautiful girl...

2009-05-30T05:41:00.000-07:00

Baby Meredith was in no mood for a strange lady weilding a camera to be following her around. BUT, we got some great shots anyway. I'm sure it was nice for her mommy to be in front of the camera as she's been busy behind it lately!

Big Family Shoot

2009-05-22T05:51:00.000-07:00

There were a lot of people in these pics, but surprisingly, the shoot went so well, and the kids were so cooperative! They were truly a beautiful family, and you can tell there's so much love between everyone. It was a great shoot.

Cool name - even cooler kiddo!

2009-05-16T08:31:00.000-07:00

What a doll - Mr. Paxton is so beautiful! I loved that we captured him doing something that he loves: playing on his backyard fort. The light was perfect, and he was very willing to cooperate and let me take his pictures. I also loved that Mom and Dad opted to leave his scabs on his face in the pics so it would be more 'him'. He took a tumble the day before our shoot!

Adorable couple...

2009-05-14T07:25:00.000-07:00

These two seemed like they'd been married for years with the ease in their actions with each other. We had a lot of fun with their dog, Bella - she's gorgeous! And, no she wasn't named for Bella in the Twilight series - that was the first question I asked. Thanks Megan and Michael, for making my job so easy and fun!

Baby Chase

2009-05-13T05:48:00.000-07:00

I had the opportunity to photograph my cousin's new baby, Chase. He's actually a month old, but his due date was just a few days ago, so he's still very newborn 'like'. He slept the whole time, and he was a breeze to capture. I love the blk/wht on these - and I could just eat him up!

Marry Me Session!

2009-05-05T14:54:00.000-07:00

Had tons of fun with these two...they were so stinkin' cute together...can't wait to do their wedding for them!

Perfect setting for a perfect day...

2009-05-04T09:55:00.000-07:00

I'd never been to Lasata Winery before, but I did a wedding there a couple weeks ago, and the place is GORGEOUS! I'm having a hard time narrowing down my faves, so I'll post several. I just really loved these. Good luck Porsche and Shawn!

Senior Shoot

2009-04-24T05:38:00.000-07:00

Well, this senior shoot was especially fun for me because it was my little brother (in-law)! I know I'm biased, but I think he is so handsome - he has perfect features! We had a blast, and I'm so glad I got to capture this time in his life. I can't believe he's graduating; when we first came into each other's lives, he was FIVE. FIVE. I'm so proud of the guy he's become. Love you Tan-Man.

Leah and Clint...

2009-04-20T12:53:00.000-07:00

Gorgeous couple. Gorgeous Wedding. Love the images.

Some Easter Fun...

2009-04-15T13:11:00.000-07:00

Had so much fun with Easter this year - and I'm sure it had a lot to do with Miss Marlo. The boys had matching shirts (probably one of the last years they'll let me do that to them), and Marlo wore a beautiful VERY girly dress with 'ruffly butt tights', pink patten-leather shoes, and a white knit sweater. It was so fun to get her dressed! I just never realized I had such a girly side to me. Anyway, here are a few of the pics I snapped during the weekend.

Back to work...

2009-03-31T14:04:00.001-07:00

...and loving it! And my first shoot back was of Mr. Brody and his big sis Gracie. Gracie has been on here several times before, but this was the first time for her two week old little bub. I can see he has inherited her ability to look good in ANY photo. What a great way to get back into the groove of things!

Can't get enough of her...

2009-03-17T18:33:00.000-07:00

My mom and I did a mini-shoot of Miss Marlo at my rents' house the other day; the light in their dining room is perfect mid-afternoon. I love this girl more than I thought possible. I have a feeling there will be A LOT of photos in her future.

Introducing...

2009-03-09T18:59:00.000-07:00

Marlo Elizabeth Thorne

Wednesday, March 4th, 8:26am

9lbs 15oz ~ 23in

We are all absolutely, positively in love with this girl...

This is it...

2009-03-03T13:14:00.000-08:00

Well, I had my last doc's appt. today. Baby still looks good - and big...but I'm thinking they overestimated the weight and that it will probably be high 8s or low 9s. We check in at 6:30am tomorrow morning, and I will update as soon as possible. If they don't have internet access, I'll try to update with my Blackberry at some point.

Please keep us and Baby in your thoughts and prayers...we really appreciate it!

Miss Finley is turning ONE!

2009-02-26T06:54:00.000-08:00

As big and round and unmanageable as my belly is, there was no way I was missing Finley's first year pics. I've had the honor of capturing her several times in her first year, and I couldn't wait to cap it off with this shoot. I LOVE how these turned out. And, I know I've said this a bazillion times, but there's just no way she could get any more beautiful. She's seriously one of the most gorgeous kids I've ever seen. Anyway, these were a few of my faves.

Some new stuff...

2009-02-20T13:59:00.001-08:00

Well, I haven't been doing much shooting in this new year because, well, I'm huge, and I'm very uncomfortable. BUT - Miss Kourtney and her mom and dad came to my house, so I didn't even have to get out of my comfy slippers for this shoot. This little girl was so gorgeous, and I kind of put an artsy spin on her pics - they just called for it, I think. Anyway, here's some of my first kid's shoot of the year.

More about the baby...

2009-02-15T14:38:00.000-08:00

I know I haven't shared much about this pregnancy or the anticipation of another baby on here, but I have a good reason. I'm scared. BJ's scared. We both had decided that we were done with birthing babies and the biggest reason was the horrible ordeal we went through with our Max. Many of you know, but most of you don't, about how sick he was at birth, and how close we came to losing him. The experience left its mark on both of us, and we didn't know if we could risk it again. Well, God had other plans apparently, and so a baby was on the way. The closer we get to February 4, the more excited I get, but also, the more I think about what happened with Mr. Maxwell. I wrote about the experience not long after it happened, and while reading back through it recently, I thought I would share it here so you can read about it, and maybe send some prayers/good vibes our way so we don't go through it this time. I can't tell you how much we know that we hit the jackpot, and that so many families aren't as fortunate as we were. We thank God everyday for our little man, and we enter into the birth of this new little one with wonder, hope, and fear, but mostly with love. Anyway, here is the story of Maxwell Brian's birth...

Wake me up, when September ends...
From the positive pregnancy test with Max, things in my life changed. Of course it changed emotionally and figuratively, but it also changed physically. I was so, so sick with him. I went to the hospital twice for dehydration and I basically threw up for 16 straight weeks. I had to be monitored for PVCs, or heartbeat skips, and I had two bouts of bronchitis, sinusitis, and acid reflux that could kill a horse. Yes, this pregnancy took its toll on me. The saving grace, though, was that we saw a healthy baby on our ultrasounds. I could deal with everything else as long as our baby was healthy. We wanted him to be a surprise, but we had no such luck. It was apparent that we had another little boy on the way. We never confirmed it, but we were certain we had seen his goods.

Because of my scheduled c-section, Max would be born at 38 weeks, six days - one week and a day from being full term. We were still nervous though, because Cooper, our second born had entered the world at the same gestation, and he had some problems breathing. We didn't get to hold him for two days and it was torture. We were reassured that the incident with Coop was very rare - one in a 1,000 to be exact, so the section was planned. On September 15, at 8:15am, Max made his way into the world at 7lb14oz and 21 in. He was screaming and very pink - a healthy 9 and 9 on his apgars. He looked like a little linebacker - just like his daddy. Dr. Suanes kept reassuring me that he was perfect; he didn't even have to 'suck' out the gunk in his lungs. Thank God. Relax now. Stop shaking. He's perfect; he's screaming and kicking. Despite all the wonderful words coming at me, something was on top of me - a heaviness - a feeling of entrapment. I couldn't kick it. It was hanging around despite the smiling faces - despite the laughs and the football player comments. Stop this Brandie. Ask to see him now. He was so beautiful. I kissed his forehead and told him that I'd see him in the recovery room. I was looking forward to nursing him and counting his fingers and toes. I was so excited to make him mine.

After his daddy took him to the nursery, the OR was quiet and peaceful. I had the strangest sense of calm come over me. It was total peace, and I was warm for the first time in three hours. I drifted to sleep with thoughts of seeing my baby in just a few short minutes. As they wheeled me into the recovery room, I noticed that BJ wasn't in there. Something's wrong. Stop shaking. Where is Max? The weight was back on my chest. I knew something wasn't right. BJ walked in without our baby. Where is he? What's wrong - I demanded an answer as the tears began to flow. BJ told me that he was 'grunty' and so they wanted to let him warm up a bit before bringing him in. No big deal - just a while longer they assured me. No oxygen, no IV's - nothing. He was just a little grunty. The tears flowed despite the the news. This isn't good. Something's wrong here. They don't know, but somethings' wrong. I bitterly told BJ that he would be on oxygen within an hour. I just felt it. Everyone kept brushing off my worries. He's fine - they'd say - just a little grunty. Forty-five minutes later, he was on oxygen. Dr. Suanes was putting him on antibiotics just in case of an infection. My fears were becoming reality.

Before bed, I made my way down to see him. He was in an oxygen hood and he had a lot of monitors on him. But he was beautiful. He had so much hair, and LONG toes. Oh, he was so precious. Why is he sweating? Why is he so irritated? His little chest looks like it's moving so hard. Something's wrong! He's doing better, they'd say. He's hungry - look at him. I ached to feed him. I longed to feel his weight in my arms, but I would wait. I would wait until he was okay.

I didn't sleep at all that night. I couldn't get rid of this terrible feeling. I wanted so badly to go to sit with him. I wanted him to know I was there. In the morning, we were told that he was the same. No better - no worse. He was still on oxygen, and his saturation levels dropped when they tried to decrease it. We could see Dr. Suanes with him for more than an hour. This is bad. This is bad. BJ tried to reassure me, but I was somewhere else. I knew to prepare myself. The look on Dr. Suanes' face said it all. He sat down and told us we were shipping him to a high level NICU - an hour south of us. He was beginning to struggle, and his blood culture came back positive. The tears began. I knew it. I had told everyone that this was going to happen, and no one listened! They all reassured me that he was okay. I was angry. I was scared. I was losing my baby. I told the nurse that I would be going down with him. They advised against it, but I was going. They called the NICU team from St. Mary's and they were on their way. I got up, showered, and got my things ready. I went to see him again. He was pale and sweaty. He was struggling with every breath. Breathe baby boy - breathe. Please hang in there, Max. He's bad. Tell him how much you love him! Tell him you'll see him soon. Tell him he's a fighter - he'll make it through this. I wanted to tell him so many things, but I didn't. I just cried.

An hour later, Dr. Suanes and Dr. Maddock came rushing into my room. "We need your consent to place emergency chest tubes. There are risks, but we have to do it, or Max is going to stop breathing." My baby had a neumo-thorax in each lung, and his lungs were giving up. I wanted to throw up. I signed the papers and they ran to the nursery. They drew the blinds, and all was quiet. I stood up and headed for the door. I wanted to run out of that hospital. I wanted to run like hell and pretend none of this was happening. I didn't want to stop until this place was so far behind me. Breathe, Brandie. Get a grip. You can't run. Pray. Pray like you've never prayed before. Then, it was quiet. I lay on BJ's shoulder, and we cried. There were no words, but what could be said anyway? Everything was inadequate. There was nothing to say to express how we felt. For twenty minutes, we sat together and prayed. The only sound was our breathing and crying. It was truly the most torturous twenty minutes of my entire life. But then, a nurse opened our door. She was smiling. She told us that Max was stable and that his levels were coming down to normal. The chest tubes were doing their job. We went then and saw him. He was calm and pink. He was breathing easy and resting. I cried so hard. I longed to hold him and take him away from this.

The NICU team loaded him up into the incubator. I reached in and touched his hand. He squeezed my finger and broke my heart into a million pieces. Remember his face. Remember his bright eyes. Remember the softness of his fingers. Don't forget. Tell him how much you love him! Tell him. I love you Maxy. I love you more than you'll ever know. Fight little man. Fight for Mama. I'll see you soon. And then, they were gone. We loaded up my stuff, got in the car, and headed south. We called everyone we could think of. We wanted prayers coming from every direction. We didn't know if our baby was alive or gone. We didn't know anything, and it was miserable. I was so scared to walk into that NICU. I was so terrified that someone would meet us at the door and take us into the room by ourselves. I was terrified of what he would look like. Would he know we were there?

The ride up the elevator was too long and too short. I wanted to get there and be with him, but I wanted to wait until he was well. I wanted to ride the elevator until I could take him home. It was safe in there - quiet, and still. When BJ pushed the wheel chair into the foyer of the NICU, we were told to wash our hands and put on protective scrubs. I was so cold, and the water felt so warm and soothing. As we made our way through the NICU to the back, or the unstable nursery as it was called, my heart began to sink. I could see him now. He was hooked up to a ventilator and he was still. The only movement was that of the oscillator that kept the gases moving in and out of his lungs at a rapid rate. I couldn't see his face, and he had tubes in his umbilical stump. He had several monitors going off around him. It was heart wrenching. I couldn't stop the tears now. There weren't any reassuring faces now. Neither one of us dared to ask his prognosis. We didn't want to hear that it might end horribly. We were with him now, and that was enough....to be continued...

...September continued...
We were only with him for a few minutes. It had to be extremely still and quiet around him, and it seemed that we were doing nothing but getting more emotional as we stood there. A nurse led us down a hall and said that we were free to use one of their rooms for as long as we needed. I remember her commenting that they always give rooms to families of the sickest babies. That stuck in my heart like a knife.

About that time, I asked if I should start pumping my milk. I wanted to do something so badly, and this was the only thing that I could control. I hoped with all my heart that the nurse would tell me to do it - that she would be so confident that Maxy would need it that she'd want me to get right to it. I wanted her to see how desperate I was to do something to affect the situation. I don't think I could have dealt with any other answer than, "Yes - you need to start doing that now. Let me go get a pump set up for you." I had just a small bit of hope when she cheerfully walked out the door to get the pump. My mind wouldn't let me consider what would happen if he didn't end up needing it. BJ had gone to the car to get our things, and I was alone. I couldn't handle being alone; too many thoughts were bumping around in my head; I couldn't wait for him to return. When he came back in the room, I felt I could rest a bit, and so I did. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

Believe it or not, hunger started to set in as well. We were surprised that we could even think of food, but we did, and BJ decided to go down to the cafeteria and get something for us. He returned with Subway, and it tasted really good. It felt good just to get some kind of substance in us. And then, the door opened. A man in a St. Mary's scrub shirt walked in with a solemn look upon his face. Oh My God - it's the chaplain - my baby's gone; oh my God, my baby's gone! "Are you Mr. and Mrs. Thorne?" BJ grabbed my hand and we both started to cry. "What's wrong?!" I demanded to know if something terrible had happened. He proceeded to tell us that Max was stable, and that he was actually his physician. He wanted to give us his assessment on our baby's condition. Breathe, Brandie. Slow down. He's still here; he's stable. Calm down. Dr. Myles Grant - a name that conjures up good feelings now - was telling us that our son was very sick. It was touch and go, and his condition was extremely fragile. BUT - he didn't think it was anything long-term that was causing it. He simply believed that Maxy's lungs were just not mature enough to handle the outside world. A term baby, not quite mature. Rare, he said, very rare. And then, he said something that changed me. He said, "I truly believe he can beat this." He can beat it? He can really come out of this? Does he think he's going to make it? Don't ask - just take what he said and run with it. He can beat it. My baby can beat this. As Dr. Grant left the room, I was different. BJ was different. I couldn't stop the tears now, but they were different tears. They were tears of hope, and my baby had a chance. It was truly the best thing my ears have ever heard.

I actually slept well that night. My pain meds helped a great deal, and I was able to fall into a deep sleep. With morning, though, came the fear that his condition may have worsened. I told BJ that I could not call down to check on him. I couldn't handle it. I handed the phone to BJ, and my stomach flip-flopped. I thought I was going to faint. I watched BJ's face for any sign of anything - good or bad. I saw his face relax, and I knew our baby was still stable. His oxygen levels had stayed the same during the night, and they didn't have to increase it; that was a very good sign. We decided to get something to eat, and we stopped by the NICU on our way down. Again, that warm water felt so comforting. I can't explain what a soothing sensation it was. As BJ wheeled me in, I started to breathe heavily, and I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. It was just heart-wrenching to see him so lifeless, and so connected to artificial life. As we stared at him, I prayed that he knew how much I loved him. I prayed that he knew how much I wanted to hold him in my arms. Dr. Arnaez approached us with a smile on his face; I was hoping that meant we were getting a decent update. He told us not to be alarmed by all the wires. He said Maxy was doing very well, and that they were even able to decrease his O2 and his stats were staying up. That was a wonderful sign. We felt rejuvinated and very hopeful as we left the NICU to go downstairs.

By Saturday night, they had removed his oxygen completely, and his stats were still good. We couldn't believe it. I've never felt such joy. On Sunday, our parents came down to visit, and they brought Sam and Coop; it was absolute bliss to hug them and have them with us. My parents were able to go in to see Max with one of us. BJ and his mom went first, and then I took my dad and mom in. They said that he was slowly waking up from his induced coma. He was still on the fast-paced oscillator, but his lungs were trying to take breaths on their own. When I stood above him, I said, "Hi baby boy - I love you so much, little Man." He fluttered his eyes. I said it again. "Oh how Mama loves you Sweet boy." Again, he fluttered. The nurse said, "Well he sure knows his Mama, huh?!" I can't tell you what it did for me. It was the first real connection I had with my baby. I hadn't held him yet, but my heart felt like I was dancing with him. I knew then that he would make it; we would bring him home.

Over the course of the next week and a half, Max continued to fight and continued to improve rapidly. Dr. Grant said that he 'bounced' incredibly well, and that he was a healthy little guy. We were able to bathe him and rock him. Holding him was magic. I could've stayed in that rocking chair forever. I soaked up everything around us so I would never forget that moment. His little body felt so warm and good against my own.

We took him home ten days after we had arrived. His final diagnosis was Pulminary Hypertension; basically, his lungs weren't mature at birth. He was happily taking breast milk, and he seemed to be ready to adjust to life outside the world of buzzers and beepers and stethoscopes. Driving home, I turned around and saw all three of my boys in the seat behind us. I couldn't believe how truly blessed we were. My mind was filled with things from the two weeks that we had just gone through. I couldn't make sense of any of it, and I couldn't let myself think about how close we came to losing our little man. I didn't even try. I knew there would be plenty of time for that later. I just wanted to turn around, look down the road, and know that my family was with me. My two big boys, and my baby who beat the odds. It was how it should have been, and I've never been more grateful for anything in my life.

A different kind of photo...

2009-02-11T11:44:00.000-08:00

This is our baby. She/he looks EXACTLY like Mr. Max, our youngest. The entire ultrasound was amazing, but when we saw his/her face, it was incredible - I just love those thick lips! Oh, and it looks like the baby may be big...his/her estimated weight right now at 36wks is 8lbs 3oz...are you kidding me?! Thank God for c-sections. Anyway - just wanted to share...only three more weeks from today and we get to meet this new little guy. Or girl.

...and more...

2009-02-11T09:15:00.000-08:00

Love this black/white conversion, and although he's got the 'serious senior' look going, it looks more confident than cocky!

Does his look not scream, "What'choo talkin' 'bout Willis?" I adore his expression and the antique look to the photo. I also just adore him.

Yeah - it's Mr. Gabe from above again...I can't get enough of his cheeks, and the light in the shot was perfect.

Genuine emotion...so relaxed and happy.

I knew their mom wanted a foot shot, and when I arrived at the location, this tub just struck me as the perfect place to shoot it. I love how it turned out.

A genuine moment...I love how they're looking at each other. The setting sun was a perfect light behind me as well.

Can't. Take. The. Sweetness. This shot was kind of an afterthought when the shoot was finished. I was so glad I kept snapping as this was my favorite from the whole shoot.

I really like the old school b/w conversion on this, and I also love how protective they look of each other.

Love the detail in their silhouettes...you can clearly see her eyelashes. Perfect time of day for photos.

This senior was willing to try anything, and I only snapped two photos in which he looked serious. And I had to tell him not to smile on those two! I like the angle here, and I really like how the arches lead into shadows.

And the list goes on...

2009-02-08T16:16:00.001-08:00

Perfect light; perfect moment...it was at the end of our shoot, and the pose just worked. Love the way the light is shining through her hair.

I like the severe angle on this one, and I love the light on her face and in her eyes - great catchlights.

I don't normally do a lot of shots like this, but for her, a butterfly fairy just worked perfectly, and it ended up being my fave from the shoot.

I really like the texture here. It gives the photo an urban, seventies kind of feel.

Is this bride gorgeous or what?! This is probably my favorite wedding shot of the 'traditional' posed kind. I love the tones and light.

Doesn't she look like she could be a kid from any of the last three decades? Pure happiness and joy.

She was done with this shoot, and she was letting me know it! But, I love the emotion I caught in her eyes, and I really like this conversion of black and white.

I love everything about this shot, but the pure joy on C's face as she receives a smooch from her cousin in priceless. LOVE it.

This little guy wanted nothing to do with me or my stinkin' camera, but mom and dad got him to lighten up with the ole' swing'em by the arms trick. I caught a genuine, real moment of emotion here.

Again, all I can think of when I see this pic is, "Happy, happy, joy, joy..." She loved jumping and twirling and spinning around, and I happened to catch the joy in action.

Keep'em Comin'

2009-02-07T09:12:00.000-08:00

I've had a great response from posting these, so I will keep them coming indefinitely. First off, Miss OJ. I adore her expression in this one, and I like how the green makes her red suit really pop.

I like how the shadow becomes the main attraction in this shot - it's dark and mysterious, and the texture gives the photo an old world charm.

This is probably not a shot a typical bride would choose for her album, but it's one of my faves because of the light. Everything is in deep shadows except for her and her dress. The sun was shining through the trees just perfectly when I snapped this.

How much do kids love to play in water? They can't get enough of it, and this shot captures that. It's pure joy on his face, and the moment was more important than any 'perfect' photograph could ever be.

An innocent moment between siblings...no fighting, no screaming, no crying...just siblings lost in the moment of summertime. Their parents have a large print of this one hanging in their house, and I completely see why.

This was one of those captures that just kind of happened...we were walking to a new location and dad picked her up and tossed her in the air. I love how she's looking to make sure I caught the action.

Processing wise, this shot's a little 'cooler' than I normally go, but something about her eyes draws me back to this as a fave. She let loose when she was 'shielded' by her chair.

This shot would probably make it into my top five faves. Her eyes are amazing, and I love that there is no forced expression. Sometimes the most beautiful captures don't have a smile in sight.

Love the tones, love the expression, love her beauty. She looks like a painting here.

I like the contrast of her dress against the greens, and I like how she wants to be independent and walk along the fence, but first she has to check to see if Mommy and Daddy will be following her just in case.

Moving along with more favorites...

2009-02-06T16:37:00.001-08:00

I adore this shot because it captures the perfect baby body - squishy and chewy and gorgeous! I love how the focus is completely centered on the chub and the blurry grass leads the eye into it.

I really love the bright crispness of this photo, and I love how his expression pulls you into his huge, beautiful eyes. We had perfect light for this 'porch' session.

Curious and beautiful. Look at his eyes! I love the clarity of this photo and the clean look to the conversion.

The wind caught her hair at the exact right moment and made this image a perfect silhouette shot. I love their easy demeanor, and the clouds behind them lead you to their faces.

Brand new and perfectly perfect. I love how he looks so small in his bed, and how he is perfectly centered in the shot.

I love the texture on this shot and how it adds a timeless feel to it. The texture was the only thing I did to this shot in post processing. She was gorgeous, and the light was perfect.

Love that it's just her beautiful, chubby legs in this. And I love the angle from which her legs are coming into the shot.

No photographic reason for loving this one...I just do. I love how carefree they seem.

I love the vintage feel to this photo, and I LOVE the expression on the little guy's face.

One of my favorite captures. I love how the light is shining down on him as he sleeps peacefully.

More faves...

2009-02-05T15:13:00.000-08:00

This is probably one of my favorite photos I've ever taken...I love his happy, carefree expression, and I especially love the angle. It makes such a big difference to change your perspective sometimes....

I HEART the colors of this photo, and I think her eyes just sparkle - we had great light under a gazebo, and I took advantage of it to get good catchlights. And her smile 'ain't' bad either...

We had perfect sun-setting light for this shot...after driving around for a while to find the perfect field, we settled on this one, and I'm so glad we did. I love her eyes here, and how contemplative, yet content she seems...

Yes, his eyes really are that dark. Big, dark brown, saucers. And boy does he know how to use them. I really like the warm feel to this black and white as well...

Those of you who know me know that I am a dog freak, and I fell in love with this one. She was all over the place during the baby's shoot, but once I got serious about capturing a shot of her, she was all about it. Her eyes could tell a thousand emotions.

Okay - let's start the 'fave' pics of the year post...

2009-02-03T17:46:00.000-08:00

I love the natural expression on S's face here...she's so relaxed, and the catchlights in her eyes are perfect.

I love the tones in this photo, and I love how she's reaching out to her daddy...

I broke the rules here and put her at the far side of the shot - looking out, but I love how it turned it. To me, it screams, "I will forever protect you." This is my favorite maternity shot I've done so far.

His expression is so genuine here - filled with wonder for everything around him. Again, check out the catchlights in his eyes - they draw you immediately to his beautiful peepers.

I'm going to go back and dig out my fave pics from 2008 - some of them will be repeats from the blog posts, but some will be different. I'd like to explain why they're my faves, from both a photography perspective as well as an emotional viewpoint. So, here we go...

Love captured. The backlighting was just a bonus.

I'm addicted to shooting weddings...

2009-01-30T07:04:00.000-08:00

Just click on the pic to view it in it's original shape and size; blogger is cropping everything for me.

It's official - I love weddings. I love the excitement, the anticipation, the ability to be really creative...all of it. And when I get a bride and groom who want original, fun, funky shots, it makes my job even better. Jennifer and Chris were so fun - and extremely photogenic to boot, so my job was great. Everyone was so laid back, and the best part was that I knew everyone in her bridal party; I used to coach many of them in high school volleyball! Again, I had a horrible time narrowing down favorites, so I just went on a posting frenzy. I hope you enjoy them as much as I enjoyed taking them!

Beautiful December Wedding

2009-01-24T10:22:00.000-08:00

Back in the fall when I did Jared and Heather's engagement shoot, I mentioned how excited I was to do the wedding because I had babysat for the groom when he was a little guy. Wow - that has a way of making me feel REALLY old. Well, it was a blast, and everyone was willing to try anything I suggested. It didn't hurt that Heather is disgustingly beautiful. And calm. And SO sweet. It truly was a great day, and I'm so glad I got to capture it for them. As you can tell, I had a hard time narrowing down my faves.

Portrait Party

2009-01-16T06:31:00.001-08:00

This was one of the portrait parties I did this year...for $40, each of the guests received 6 portraits + a Christmas card on a disc. It was freezing outside, but the kiddos were very cooperative, and the pics were a success. A portrait party is a great way to get some cute images at a low price, and to have fun with your friends. I love doing them!

I'm alive, and ready to kick off the New Year!

2009-01-15T14:20:00.000-08:00

Well, despite being away from this blog for a long time, I am back, and ready to jump into some new shoots. I had to have an IV Picc line in my arm/chest for a month to fight a bad infection in my sinuses. NOT fun - especially when one is very largely pregnant. The Picc is now out, and I've been back on here processing, and choosing my fave shots from 2008. I'll post the rest of my shoots from '08, and then I'll get to the fun picks of my faves. Thanks for checking in still, and I promise to have lots of eye candy coming your way! Now, I'll start with a wedding I did back in November. Gorgeous couple. Absolutely gorgeous, and their wedding was nothing less than spectacular. Good luck Nevin and Ashley!

Oh Finley...

2008-12-17T14:33:00.000-08:00

I can't describe how unbelievably cute this kid is. There are no words. But, I do think the pics speak a thousand words much more elequently than I can.

Remember Mattye and Cam?

2008-12-11T14:55:00.000-08:00

They're getting bigger and cuter! We had a terribly dark day, but I used my bounce flash, and we were able to get some good pics anyway. The close-up of Mattye truly shows off her gorgeous skin and eyes.

Oh My, Mr. Gabe...

2008-12-04T13:06:00.000-08:00

I was lucky enough to capture Mr. Gabe in all his rosy cheeked glory again. I tell ya, this is one gorgeous kid. He has quite possibly the chewiest cheeks on the planet. I. HEART. Gabe.

Fall Family Fun!

2008-12-02T08:23:00.000-08:00

We had perfect setting sun light, and the kids were willing to do anything. This shoot was a blast!

I LOVED this wedding.

2008-11-26T14:33:00.001-08:00

I had more fun than I even imagined I would shooting this wedding. I've know TJ (the groom) for a long, long time, and I was so honored to be able to capture this day for them. Plus, they were willing to be goofy, so that made my job even better. Best of luck to the two of you!

I used to change his diapers.

2008-11-25T07:39:00.001-08:00

Yep - the handsome groom to be in these photos had his diaper changed by me when I used to babysit him. Wow. I'm really old. I loved doing these as I'm so excited for them. Jared is in the airforce, and I'm so proud of him. And he couldn't have picked a bigger sweetheart for his bride. I'm just so excited to do their wedding next!

Forever, I do...

2008-11-20T07:42:00.000-08:00

Peter and Emily - two people who couldn't be better suited for each other - a perfect match. I was honored to capture some moments for them before their ceremony. Best wishes on a wonderful life, guys.

Beautiful Sisters

2008-11-17T06:46:00.001-08:00

These girls were so gorgeous and expressive! Our shoot was supposed to be outdoors, but the weather took a turn, so we utilized the natural light we found in their house. I really like the results! And I HEART the pic of Mama and baby - too sweet.

A Gorgeous September Wedding...

2008-11-15T07:27:00.000-08:00

This wedding was so pretty - the location, the bridal party, the BRIDE! It was the first Sunday wedding I've ever done, and it was so lovely. And their little guy?? Can you get any cuter?!

Adorable Senior

2008-11-14T07:55:00.000-08:00

How cute is his smile?? He was so fun, and so was mom, so we had blast! Thanks Cory - hope you have a terrific senior year...

Marry Me...

2008-11-11T08:44:00.000-08:00

What a gorgeous bride to be! And they were so willing to do whatever I asked of them! So fun, and I can't wait to do their wedding in January - even though I'll be as big as a house.

Fairy Princess...

2008-10-22T17:46:00.000-07:00

Little Miss A is so beautiful, and she was a natural in front of the camera! I had so much fun making her a fairy princess - she is just precious!

Too. Many. Favorites.

2008-10-21T15:25:00.000-07:00

I had a blast on this shoot because I really like Miss K and her Mama! K was great, and she is VERY photogenic...I'll post some of my faves, but I can't wait to see which ones are their favorites. Is she a doll or what?!

Back from Jamaica...

2008-10-21T09:59:00.000-07:00

BJ and I spent a wonderful long weekend in Jamaica where we witnessed our dearest friends' wedding. It was beautiful, and it was definitely a needed break! Anyway - I need to get back to posting some of my recent shoots. So get ready! ..... Aren't these girls jsut adorable?? They were so fun, and they made my job VERY easy. Mama has her hands full, but she's got beautiful babies for sure!

I do...

2008-10-09T07:45:00.000-07:00

I can't say enough about how gorgeous this bride was. She. Was. Stunning. It was a great wedding, and the weather was perfect, despite dire warnings from the meteorologists in the area!

Beautiful Kiddos - Beautiful Location

2008-10-09T07:41:00.000-07:00

Check out the eyes on this little guy! And his big sis was so adorable; I love how she scrunched her little nose up!

Overload of photos coming up!

2008-10-09T07:14:00.001-07:00

I have so many shoots that I need to post. AND, they were some of my faves, so I'm going to get right to it.

Okay - I'm sure you remember Miss Finley - how could anyone forget that unbelievable face? She really is a perfect specimen of baby girl! :) And her cousin, Chloe?? Good God, they've got good genes in that family! And honestly, I could stare at the one of F kissing C all day - is that not beautiful?!

Down on the farm...

2008-10-02T09:51:00.000-07:00

These kids were adorable, but the only way I could get the little guy to look at me is if I let him throw corn at me! Oh well, the close-up shot of his gorgeous eyes was worth it!

A Shout Out For Homecoming...

2008-09-24T09:47:00.000-07:00

As a lot of you local readers know, this weekend is Vincennes' Homecoming. I just had to let everyone know that my close friends Jenni and Bill Gordon will be selling Bill's famous pizza out of Old Town on Friday and Saturday night. If you've never had it, you don't know what you're missing! I'm not kidding, it's the best pizza I've ever had. If you're venturing downtown, stop in and order one; I can guarantee you won't regret it!

I'm here - and I'm feeling completely human!

2008-09-23T13:27:00.000-07:00

I know, I know - I've said something like this in previous posts, but this time, I THINK it's for real. I haven't thrown up in five days, and my energy is coming back - woohoo! I truly didn't think I would make it through this bout of morning sickness, and to feel normal again is such a blessing.

Anyway, despite feeling like I had been run over by a tractor the last few months, I have done several shoots, and honestly, they were what helped me keep going! Being busy really is a God-Send. These shots are from a wedding back in August. Candice was seriously the most relaxed bride I've ever been around. For that reason, the wedding was even more fun than usual. Thanks for letting me be part of your beautiful day, guys!

Adorable Family

2008-09-03T05:18:00.000-07:00

These kind of shots are my favorites - very relaxed and natural with little to no posing. Mr. G was so cute and smart as a whip. AND he definitely didn't want me or my camera in his face! We had some perfect light for some of these, and I love how they turned out.

This shoot made me happy :)

2008-08-26T14:53:00.000-07:00

I adored this shoot. I loved seeing the absolute joy of Miss I. She was truly a doll, and everything she did created giggles and twirls. Her little sis is so stinkin' cute it's ridiculous - red hair AND blue eyes? Are you kidding? These girls are just 'beauty-full' and I love it.

I'm here - and I'm ready to post some pics!

2008-08-25T07:42:00.000-07:00

Man - this pregnancy has wiped me out. Not only have I been dead tired and extremely nauseated, but it seems that the computer moniter adds to my sickness. I thought I was imagining things until I confirmed it on several pregnancy sites. Yuck. BUT - I'm a bit better, and I'm going to post some images from the last several weeks. Thanks for hanging in there with me!

These images are from a shoot I did back in July - it was a huge extended family, and they were wonderful! I loved how easy they were to work with, and you could just tell how loved these grandkids are. It was a truly enjoyable shoot.

I'm back!

2008-08-11T09:53:00.000-07:00

Phew - what a week! We're back from vacation, and between trips to the toilet to throw up, and getting stuff ready for the boys' first week of school, I'm going nuts! I will respond to all of my emails at some point today, so don't give up on me!

Be back in a week...

2008-08-01T14:21:00.000-07:00

Off to the Florida sunshine for a week! I won't be checking emails until next Sunday, so if you're trying to get ahold of me, that is where I'll be. Have a great week!

I'm not trying to be so neglectful...

2008-07-31T07:01:00.000-07:00

...of this poor blog of mine. It's just that this morning sickness is KILLing me. Yep, I'm eight weeks pregnant, and if I'm not hurling, I feel like I should be. It takes all of my energy to simply move without being sick. Blech - this is NO fun. I've had it with each pregnancy thus far, though, so I really shouldn't be that surprised. This is definitely the worst one, though.

Anyway - I have a couple more shoots to post before we leave for vacation tomorrow. Hopefully, I'll have them up by the end of the day. Thanks for checking it; I really appreciate it!

Brandie

Stop Olivia Jane; just stop it.

2008-07-23T18:22:00.000-07:00

If Miss OJ doesn't stop getting any more beautiful, I might just implode. I've never seen more perfect skin, and her hair color?? Are you kidding? And she's just as sweet as she is cute. I truly feel privileged to have been able to watch her grow from behind my camera. I'm looking forward to many more years of captured moments of Miss Olivia Jane.